looking up...

I had a few thoughts swirling around my brain

or lack thereof I feel somedays

but that's a whole other entry perhaps

but some thoughts swirling around

about what I think about when

I'm looking up at my girls

literally looking up at them...

but it's just not going to happen today

these sweet girls

are in fact pretty darn sweet

I won't lie

they are my loves

they are so much fun when we spend time together or play our special kitchen game

but don't always be fooled by those sweet smiles

these past weeks

I've been making it through

barely...

I feel like but honestly made it just fine...

all the good stuff and fun times are definitely there with them

no honest or true complaints when it comes down to it

I've been living in the moment with them more than ever

*love*

but my little one { 2 year-old} is giving me a run for my money right now

I remember when Madison went through this

non-stop 24-hour-a-day drama episodes

about

everything...

every.single.darn.thing

drop down cryouts all day long

or so it seems...

so that entry is going to have to wait a bit

because they are just segmented thoughts that need to be put together a bit better

honestly...

I couldn't wait for the first day of school

and am so thankful Bobby will be home for a few weeks

so I can run out of the house and scream if I need too...

no ~ not really...

but I am the type of mother

that just lets them cry out their tantrums and I'll talk to them when they are done

and yes I even catch myself finally raising my voice

{dare I call it a yell, right?} when enough is enough

that's not my favorite to admit...

not so much at all

but I'm not perfect

So when the tantrums come in public

I don't care how many stares I get {well sometimes I don't care}

even though I just want to ask people sometimes

"apparently you never had kids, right?"

because if you did...

you perhaps would be laughing out of memory of this with your own, right?...

not staring...

because I sometimes laugh personally...

{an understanding laugh that is...}

but anyway...

I was so excited for the first day of school

because they were thrilled and loved getting their backpacks ready

heck I loved helping them get ready

and fulfilling the requests of curled hair in the morning for both of them

 I love seeing them excited

and right now...school is a love for them

they began asking about it a couple weeks ago

I am so thankful I do work from home and spend time with the girls

but we all have to have breaks

although I do honestly follow through 95% of the time

I'll admit sometimes I'm just too tired to deal with it

{confession, right?}

but I do follow through enough for them to know

that listening to their mama is how it's just going to be

so anyway...

these cute little faces

give me a run for my money

but I wouldn't trade it for the world either

not at all

wouldn't trade their drama tantrums

for anything

we all know that

so I didn't cry the first day of school for them...

I cried the second day of school for them

time is really flying by

and I'm so happy even on the challenging days

that these little precious smiles are being silly

because the silliness makes me smile and forget

every.single.drama.incident too

{that is until it happens again, right?}

So Hayley even when you give me the fish face

when you don't want your picture taken

I still love the pictures

because it is soooo you to do that

you never do anything

until you are ready to do it

and I really do love that about you

now she was ready...

in her own timing

of course

I wouldn't trade anything to not being able to see

this little girl twirling in her dress before school

instantly put a smile on my face

So guess again Hayley is having another tantrum on the floor

right this very second

and as she just rolled over on her Princess and the Frog horn

she immediatley stopped herself from crying so she can play it

yep that's definitely her

a convenience tantrum until she discovered something better to do

so I look over at her

and she starts crying again...

because

"I looked at her"

oh boy...

going to be another long night...

but her sweet "I love you's" to me

definitely "make it better real quick"

she told Bobby and I the other day her favorite part of the day

was when she

"was listening {to us}"

I turned to her and said

"honey...you didn't do much of that at all!"

otherwise we wouldn't be scurring you to bed...

yes...this girl {on the left}

when she gets in trouble...

gives us the stare down

until you laugh at her

making what you just said to her completely pointless

and not effective what-so-ever

because without a doubt...I am the first one to laugh

and then it trickles down to everyone

and then I'm the one getting in trouble for laughing first

go figure...

so again I didn't cry the first day of their school

I rejoiced for 5 hours

but the second day as we dropped off Madison I did...

she goes an extra day than Hayley

so I had some tears about her getting older and going more days

and having a day with tantrum girl all by myself

no just kidding

I was excited about a special day with Hayley

I think she really needs it too

but Madison she's a-growing-up

and that part is getting hard

I'm proud of you my loves

both of you

your first day of school was a piece of cake...

I put together an impromtu dessert bar to celebrate their first day of school last night

I loved surprising them and they couldn't have been happier about it

a fun little celebration with sparkling berry lemonade

that always makes them smile