January 17, 2010

some things you just know...

Today was a funny sort of day...you know...

because it was a crazy sort of messy day from the beginning...

hubby and I woke up on a blow up bed...well because we sold our bed...

and for one of the first times...mwah {me}...did not plan ahead...

to make sure we would have a bed...
I sort of dreamed of redoing an old cottage bedframe...
well but time got away...and now we are bedless momentarily...

there are several reasons why we don't have a bed quite yet ~

First I can picture our room together so dreamy it makes both of our hearts sing...
so I am waiting to find that "perfect" bed for us...

but you want to know what is silly...
we cannot quite decide what size to get...

When we first got married...we had a full size bed
And then we were given a King size bed
because honestly anything was better than our full size bed
and at that time ~ it was just tight for us quite frankly with fertility things going on...
but don't get me wrong we were thankful!

But now we cannot decide whether to downsize to a queen rather than purchasing another king size bed.
We had made a decision...queen for sure because honestly do we need a king?

Nope...

because what is silly is that as long as we had our full size bed ~
when we had our king...
I slept on the very edge

Bobby would continually ask me now why on earth would I do that when we have half the bed over on the other side not to be used...I guess the same reason I learned to hug the corners when I run I guess...I have no idea.

We have the room for a king...but really...do I want one?

Because I am thinking of creating a little sitting area...
and honestly since kiddo #2 has arrived my desk now resides in our bedroom as well

But you know that self-doubt when you have one person ask you...
Really?...you want to downsize?

That gets you thinking...are we thinking correctly?
Was our decision the right one?

And then as the bed search...Bobby finally gives up and says
Martha...you can pick whatever...

Really? That is kind of what I was thinking anyway...
not because he was frustrated...he just knows by now...

I'll end up picking it.


I brought up my dream of my white iron bed...
the one I dreamed about ever since we got married...
that Bobby used to tell people I wanted...
not one specifically but the idea of one

and now suddenly when i brought it up again...
He said...
"Martha, are you serious?"
when he was all for it before...

"Because that gets noisy...Martha"
"WHAT? you have got to be kidding me you are thinking about that" was my reaction...
Something like that doesn't even cross my mind...

"that is really what you are thinking about????"..."you have GOT to be joking"...

So, I've dared him to actually call the store and ask them about it...
{he really won't do it...all in fun joke you know}
because I just think it is ridiculous...
shows even after all this time...his mind still wanders, I guess...

He says he is game about asking...
We will see about that...
I know...we both still get kicks out of making ourselves laugh together and finding our own fun...

But today it made me see that even with our silly conversation about our bed...
I LOVE how we have our own fun, our own humor...in everything.
We will be sitting there on our porch someday laughing at all the ridiculous things we laughed about...

And even though he had a rough week...
we dealt, we laughed, we of course made it through
we mostly know what to let go and what to hold tight to.
{most of the time that is ~ we do have "occasional" mess ups still...notice that was in quotations:)

Anyhoo...I learned over the weekend about a woman, a mother, a wife, a shop owner 
that lost her husband recently...
he was 39...
and I was e-mailed about it...
it made my heart drop for her because I cannot imagine losing the one I love so dearly as she did...
I just cannot imagine...but I held my prayers for her during different moments today...
because honestly it has been a thankful week for me knowing the devastation in Haiti too...

But a woman I don't know...
a mother of two boys
a wife to a young husband of 39
a shopowner who loved what she did

But the thought of her husband being gone in a blink of an eye I cannot imagine...

It did cause me to smile at my own family as I was cooking dinner tonight...
the girls sitting at the table
Hayley screaming and crying for something
Madison singing both Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star and Old MacDonald had a Farm to her
And Bobby helping me do something...I cannot even remember now...

That crying from Hayley while Madison was singing to her with my teammate beside me is how I love my world ~ the simple life that usually drives me crazy sometimes with crying and whining you get from girls
made me smile today...

The blogland is coming together and supporting her and her family...
so if you like to shop
and you would love to lend some support because she has to sell everything to support her family now...
Visit her shop here...

It made our waking up on a blow up bed...definitely okay...because we aren't making a quick decision just to have a bed even though we would like to.
{and my wonderfully caring parents are mortified about our sleeping arrangments by the way}...

we really don't care out our sleeping quarters...because it is only momentarily...
something that is not forever
only temporary...
because I'm in search for the perfect bed for our retreat...

And today for some reason it dawned on me...
Bobby and I have been together for over half of our lives now...
Over half...
and I'm thankful for that because I knew the moment I saw him
there was a plan for us...
even the simple plan on agreeing on a bed...

And I'm thinking this one...

found here
because of the color
because of the price
because of the glass knobs on it
that match the knobs I put on my dresser that I purchased from Kasey when she had her shop
because I am imagining some chippy paint white shutters hanging behind our bed...beach cottage style...

I do have a budget {that I gave myself} and I am going to do better than matching the price...
I want to do under
and yes save a little too...

Sweet dreams!

23 comments:

Shannon said...

Very cute post and love the bed. You can never go wrong with Pottery Barn!!!

Suzann said...

Such a great post.
LOVE the bed.
My husband probably wouldn't care about the squeak, it would be me. LOL
Can't wait to see what you do with the room!!!

Londen @ Sixty-Fifth Avenue said...

Love that bed...I am on the lookout for a new/old one too.

Laurie said...

That was OUR first bed- only in black, not white. We LOVED it!! It's now our guest bed, and guests love it too. :) The squeaking story cracks me up. I'll email you a funny about that. I think it would look great in your room!!

Flower Patch Farmgirl said...

I've always loved that bed! And I think a Queen is the perfect size. Plus, like you said, it frees up a little space in the rest of the room. Go get that bed!!

Twig - Love Your Home said...

Yep, awesome bed. Seriously. My husband made our bed and it creaks. Can I just tell you its really hard to have guests over when you have a creaky bed?!?!?! haha There's always the awkward thought of "even though I know I'm just getting into bed, the bed is making noise. What must they be thinking right now?? Maybe I should fake sneeze just so they know nothing is going on" hahah. Ahh good times.

Great post.....keeping Feather Your Nest in my prayers as well...I love all the support that blogland seems to put out. So wonderful! Have a great week! :)

Lemonade Makin' Mama said...

We had a very similar bed and not it's in my daughter's room because we have a platform bed... my man never liked the "girly bed" as he liked to call it... he always wanted a big king sized bed. Ha!

I felt the same way when I heard about her husband dying. Just broke my heart.

Beki - TheRustedChain said...

Looove that first picture. Makes me want to snuggle up and sleep.

Angela Harris said...

I think you definitely want a king! If we didn't have one we'd have to sleep on the floor. With all of our kids sneaking in. It's a necessity! :)
Good luck with the decorating! Can't wait to see

Jeanneoli said...

Sweet, sweet post. I think a lot of us are feeling blessed this week.

Julie said...

I can't wait to see this room when you finish with it! It's also good to know I am not the only one who sleeps on the edge of the bed...even when Adam is gone and I have it to myself!

Lissa said...

That will be a beautiful bed! I also have been really appreciating all that I have.

the wild raspberry said...

a blow up bed is quiet for sure....

queen seems like the perfect size~ just small enough that you still feel cuddly.

good luck~~

chas

koralee said...

I ADORE how you think my sweet friend. Do you want to know what I think?...{if you said no..well too bad}...I think you should get a Queen size bed...I think you and your husband are amazingly sweet...I think your children are the luckest ones in the world to have parents like you both...I think I am going to do some shopping to help out that sweet women who just lost her husband{wow...so so so sad}...I think a white iron bed would be so dreamy...and lastly I think waking up on a blow up bed is very romantic...smiles to you today! xoxoxo

Mrs. Dunbar said...

Your conversation made me, something my husband and I would say to each other. I love the bed you've chosen and I too teeter between queen size? or king size? It'll all work out and you will love it. And we'll all be happy for you over here in blogland.

tara said...

What a sweet post martha...I think in the midst of all that is going on, we have to smile and be thankful for what we have...now go get that bed!

LuLu said...

You made me laugh... thank you for the sunshine to my day. Love the bed you want... go get it like tara said! I'm cheering for you too. we have a King but my 4 kiddos end up in our bed on weekend mornings so hubby and i can sleep in a little {and by a little i mean 6:30AM heee heee i have early risers} Can't wait to see you room. it's going to be beautiful,
xo,
LuLu

Jenny said...

What a beautiful post. Sometimes it takes tragedy for us to realize how lucky and fortunate we are to have such wonderful people in our lives.

I love the bed. Take your time picking out the perfect things to fill the room the two of you share together. I love that you call your room a retreat; that is exactly what it should be!

paige said...

sweet post. i was heartbroken for her too....

looking forward to seeing your dream room come together!
xo

Jules said...

We moved up to a king about a year ago and we will never go back to a queen. We love it! Happy bed shopping...

Tracey said...

Fortunately those blow up beds are pretty comfy :) We had no headboard/footboard for the first 4 yrs of our marriage...I too dreamed of a white iron bed...it wasn't until my friend worked briefly at PB and could get a 40% discount that we bucked up and got our bed! Your inpiration photo is beautiful...hope you find the bed of your dreams :)

Hugs ~

:) T

Farmgirl Paints said...

Love the picture of the bed. I'm a little partial to a king I guess. My honey and I are not cuddlers when we sleep, so the space is great for us. You better get on that. I would get tired of sleeping on an airbed in no time!

Anne Marie said...

we have a king - and love it - yes, it's probably a little big, for the space, but you don't complain when you are inside the bed and all comfy....