I had a few thoughts swirling around my brain
or lack thereof I feel somedays
but that's a whole other entry perhaps
but some thoughts swirling around
about what I think about when
I'm looking up at my girls
literally looking up at them...
but it's just not going to happen today
these sweet girls
are in fact pretty darn sweet
I won't lie
they are my loves
they are so much fun when we spend time together or play our special kitchen game
but don't always be fooled by those sweet smiles
these past weeks
I've been making it through
barely...
I feel like but honestly made it just fine...
all the good stuff and fun times are definitely there with them
no honest or true complaints when it comes down to it
I've been living in the moment with them more than ever
*love*
but my little one { 2 year-old} is giving me a run for my money right now
I remember when Madison went through this
non-stop 24-hour-a-day drama episodes
about
everything...
every.single.darn.thing
drop down cryouts all day long
or so it seems...
so that entry is going to have to wait a bit
because they are just segmented thoughts that need to be put together a bit better
honestly...
I couldn't wait for the first day of school
and am so thankful Bobby will be home for a few weeks
so I can run out of the house and scream if I need too...
no ~ not really...
but I am the type of mother
that just lets them cry out their tantrums and I'll talk to them when they are done
and yes I even catch myself finally raising my voice
{dare I call it a yell, right?} when enough is enough
that's not my favorite to admit...
not so much at all
but I'm not perfect
So when the tantrums come in public
I don't care how many stares I get {well sometimes I don't care}
even though I just want to ask people sometimes
"apparently you never had kids, right?"
because if you did...
you perhaps would be laughing out of memory of this with your own, right?...
not staring...
because I sometimes laugh personally...
{an understanding laugh that is...}
but anyway...
I was so excited for the first day of school
because they were thrilled and loved getting their backpacks ready
heck I loved helping them get ready
and fulfilling the requests of curled hair in the morning for both of them
I love seeing them excited
and right now...school is a love for them
they began asking about it a couple weeks ago
I am so thankful I do work from home and spend time with the girls
but we all have to have breaks
although I do honestly follow through 95% of the time
I'll admit sometimes I'm just too tired to deal with it
{confession, right?}
but I do follow through enough for them to know
that listening to their mama is how it's just going to be
so anyway...
these cute little faces
give me a run for my money
but I wouldn't trade it for the world either
not at all
wouldn't trade their drama tantrums
for anything
we all know that
so I didn't cry the first day of school for them...
I cried the second day of school for them
time is really flying by
and I'm so happy even on the challenging days
that these little precious smiles are being silly
because the silliness makes me smile and forget
every.single.drama.incident too
{that is until it happens again, right?}
So Hayley even when you give me the fish face
when you don't want your picture taken
I still love the pictures
because it is soooo you to do that
you never do anything
until you are ready to do it
and I really do love that about you
now she was ready...
in her own timing
of course
I wouldn't trade anything to not being able to see
this little girl twirling in her dress before school
instantly put a smile on my face
So guess again Hayley is having another tantrum on the floor
right this very second
and as she just rolled over on her Princess and the Frog horn
she immediatley stopped herself from crying so she can play it
yep that's definitely her
a convenience tantrum until she discovered something better to do
so I look over at her
and she starts crying again...
because
"I looked at her"
oh boy...
going to be another long night...
but her sweet "I love you's" to me
definitely "make it better real quick"
she told Bobby and I the other day her favorite part of the day
was when she
"was listening {to us}"
I turned to her and said
"honey...you didn't do much of that at all!"
otherwise we wouldn't be scurring you to bed...
yes...this girl {on the left}
when she gets in trouble...
gives us the stare down
until you laugh at her
making what you just said to her completely pointless
and not effective what-so-ever
because without a doubt...I am the first one to laugh
and then it trickles down to everyone
and then I'm the one getting in trouble for laughing first
go figure...
so again I didn't cry the first day of their school
I rejoiced for 5 hours
but the second day as we dropped off Madison I did...
she goes an extra day than Hayley
so I had some tears about her getting older and going more days
and having a day with tantrum girl all by myself
no just kidding
I was excited about a special day with Hayley
I think she really needs it too
but Madison she's a-growing-up
and that part is getting hard
I'm proud of you my loves
both of you
your first day of school was a piece of cake...
I put together an impromtu dessert bar to celebrate their first day of school last night
I loved surprising them and they couldn't have been happier about it
a fun little celebration with sparkling berry lemonade
that always makes them smile
